Well, yesterday was eventful! Carrie turned 13 months old, first of all. Drew came home by 13 and a half months... but it looks like she'll be a little older than that by the time she gets here. I'm sad... but I'm not going to stop praying for a Thanksgiving with my family together! A phone conversation with my agent yesterday and the realization that the DNA test has not yet taken place (making it pretty much impossible for a November homecoming) was a reality check. So, I face two choices: 1) give up on my dream and stop even praying for it OR 2) realize that God can seriously do ALL things and keep praying in faith. I choose number 2........but I feel a little skeptical, I must admit.
I found a journal the other day and a bookmark from our church's 2005 women's retreat fell out. It says this, "I know, O Lord, that a man's life is not his own; it is not for man to direct his steps." Jeremiah 10:23
I could take this many ways... but I think I'm just going to stop trying to direct my steps, Carrie's steps, God's steps. I think that I'm just going to petition my requests and ask that you join me and then let God be God. I think it's really what I've been doing, MOSTLY... but lately I have been trying to grab that conductor's stick!!! It gets hard to know how much action is my motherly duty and how much is me trying to take control of the uncontrollable.
Bottom line, if she's not home...NO WHINING! God has a time and a reason... it won't be led off course by anyone. SO, keep me in check y'all!
Happy 13 months baby girl... SOON, we'll see you soon!
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Hang in there darlin'! Ultimately she is coming, even if not for Thanksgiving, she would make a wonderful Christmas gift!
Sorry for all of the frustration!
Laura-
I have said this before and I will say it again, I admire you so much. Your ability to look beyond the pain and frustration and remain faithful is something I strive for, but often fall short. I join you in your petitions and pray that Carrie is home soon... Happy 13 Months baby girl.... soon, very soon !
God Bless-
Julie
Boy, you have an admirable outlook, Laura. I check your blog often, and I pray each time that I will see "the big announcement."
It will be soon, and in the meantime, enjoy your time alone with your husband and Drew.
Love,
Sabrina
--FYI: Once you get your embassy date, IMMEDIATELY write the Embassy and request an earlier one. it worked for us!
Praying you have pink very soon!!
Robyn
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